Turning TwentyOne on the TwentyFirst.

It's been quite some time since I've last updated. =D. Been kinda lazy these few weeks. Just trying to grab hold of my life. =D. Haha. Well, this post is specially dedicated to my friends, who celebrated my 21st birthday with me. Thanks guys. So, how should I put this. Well, it started with movies in Midvalley. =). By movies I really meant more then 1. haha. Kok Ming, Pey Yi, Ben and I headed off to Midvalley at about 11 am. We got ourselves tickets to watch Surrogates.



After the movie, we hunted for something to eat. At last we decided to walk over to the Gardens and pampered ourselves to a meal at Italiannies. Some of the food were nice but some was just average. haha..However, the most important thing of all during our meal was, I got a bread-cum-cake surprise.lolz..Well, not a surprise, I guess maybe we misunderstood the waitress at 1st. Well, to say the truth, I got the chance to taste the bread-cum-cake was all because of TAN PEY YI. (You see, I even bold and uppercase your name. You must be proud *hugs*..haha). Thanks so much. Right after we finished lunch, we went directly back to Midvalley for our 2nd show. =).

This time, we watched,

Sorority Row *shrugs and runs away*

To be honest, I was not the one who wanted to watch this movie. Or should I say that, I had not intended to watch both of these movies. Kok Ming was the one who wanted to watch both of it so much. He pleaded and begged. Being such a good guy, I just couldn't disappoint him can I? lolz..He will kill me if he sees what I've said here. Neways Kok Ming, you make a good pleader and beggar. Keep up the good job. =) *hides*



Well, after the movie, we headed back to UKM to prepare for dinner with the rest of the coursemates. =). Jun Xing purposely drove back from Port Dickson just to celebrate my birthday!!~ *hugs hugs* ahahahahahaha.....Well, after everyone gathered, 10 of us altogether went over to Serdang to have our dinner at Lek Lek Restaurant = . =. Those who choose to dine there doesn't seem smart at all...lolz..The food was just not that tasty. =).

The guys~

~The girls

After gobbling down all the food (this action is only for Edison Chew, the rest ate politely), back to UKM it was. The day does not end there. Not yet at least. haha.They prepared a "surprise" for me. *wonders*...Well, not really a surprised, I knew it beforehand. =)..First they showered me with countless gifts (I know I'm a bit exxagerating , let me), then they decided to slap a plate of slimy gooey stinky dunno what type of thing onto my face body and everywhere. =(....hahaha... It was kinda fun actually, if you're not the one being slapped with it. lolz..I didn't really got hit. The only time I got smacked was when, was when I gave you chance. I gave you the opportunity to smack that slimy thing straight to my face Mr. Chan Kok Ming. Yeah, I gave you the chance. =P. Well, the day kinda ended with us cleaning ourselves up. =.=.. Thanks to those who came and celebrated my birthday for me. To name them, Edison Chew Pan Hao, Tan Yie Hua, Pua Soh Hoon, Tan Wei Low, Tan See Gin, Leong Jun Xing, Liew Kien Ben, Tan Pey Yi, and last of all, CHAN KOK MING. =o....

Free facial wash for u~~

lalala~

The next day is continued with another celebration. =D. I know my birthday is over, but those celebrations just keep coming over. haha..Don't mind me. I'm just SSS ing. Well it was not really a celebration. Just a lunch with another coursemate aka friend who couldn't make it yesterday. We had lunch together, and he got me a cake. ^^...Well physically got me one. haha..He was financially supported by others. They got me a Baskin Robbins ice cream cake!!!~~~

yummy!!!~

Thanks guys. =). Thank you Soo Kok Hoe, Tan Yie Hua and Chan Kit Yien. hahaha..Thank you Thank you Thank you. Next time I will mention that I like haagen danz cake pulak. thanks yah..=)...


Well, that kinda sums up the celebration I had during my birthday. Though there were some hiccups and disappointments along the way, it was indeed very memorable celebration for me. =). It showed me things friends would do for just a birthday celebration. Things friends are willing to do for me. =D.....hahaha..thanks so much guys. You guys made my day more meaningful. Will try to stay positive and be cheerful as always and continue to humor you guys with my not so humorous mouth. =). Take care and best of luck!!~

Makan, makan~

Haha...it's been a while now, since I've last posted something jovial? lolz...this is not really a jovial post either..

Just that the other day my friends and I went to have our dessert as dinner. How lame could one get. We had our desserts at Honeymoon somewhere near Taman Fadason, Jinjang.. The food overall was nice, I guess..lazy to elaborate any further..let the photo's do the talking la~

Quite nice o..lolx..or should i say maybe delicious?~~~

DUnno what this is.. =.=..something mango + pomelo..haha

I ordered this...looked as if I wanted tadpole eggs for dinner so much.. =.=

and have a look at this crazy guy~ =.=...

The dessert cum dinner costed about RM XX.00...We got a free joey yung album though.. Not so nice. All mandarins songs. Kinda boring. Ideal for putting you to sleep. =D...hahaha..

That's all I guess. Nothing much to talk. Nothing much to express. Just a simple mind saying that, I'm quite pleased with my life. For now. =D

Prinsip Proses Kimia

Buat kali pertamanya, saya berbahasa Melayu dalam blog saya. Buat apa? Kenapa?

Kerana geram dan frust dengan prinsip proses kimia yang pembelajaran dan pengajarannya dalam bahasa Melayu tetapi peperiksaan dalam bahasa Inggeris.

Tolonglah pakai otak sikit. =(. Kami jurutera-akan-datang, bukan penterjemah bahasa terkemuka.

Apa gunanya belajar dalam bahasa melayu terma terma jurutera? nak berkomunikasi dengan orang putih dengan bahasa Melayu?

Bukan sahaja tak maju, malah makin undur. =(.

Dalam proses pengunduran, banyak lagi yang terdedah kepada stress dan tension. Bye bye~.

Lame~
PPK be gentle, be sweet,
You let me ace you
I will love u bitter and sweet. =(

The veil

Underneath these happy vibes that has been continuously shown

There is no doubt a sorrow behind this veil

A sorrow that not one can see

A sorrow that not one can understand

But deep beneath the veil, a shattering emotion resides

It is not to be unleashed

Just being kept

Waiting for the day

When it soon will subside

Waiting for the time

When it does not matter any longer

Waiting anxiously,

For the day this veil is no longer needed

That's the day, I've been waiting for.

A fragment of memory in Singapore~

There is a fragment of memory, that I wish to keep.

There is a tiny bit of agenda, that I wish it will prolong.

There is a part of my memory, that if I made the other choice, will it be the same?

There is always a part of me, thinking how it could have been, and not how it has happened.

But all there is now is just moving on the road that I've chosen and hoping that it will end as fast as it begun. Thinking positively, I think it will. =D

Spent 3 days 2 nights in Singapore and just got back a few hours ago. The feel was indeed different. Accommodation was "sponsored" my our lovely Ms. Maggie Mee..*grins*..Stayed at her relative's house in Woodlands for the first night. During the second night, went over to NUS to find my friends and sought refuge from them..haha..Luckilly one of them entertained me and took me to the upper lounge of their hall and I spent my night there. =). Thank you~ *muacks*

Well, the main reason I went to Singapore was to visit a friend that I know I have little chance to meet. Due to the fact that he lives in JB and I in KL. Moreover, we both study in different higher institutions in different countries. Meeting him again after more than a year was kinda relieving for me. At last we managed to meet up with each other albeit the barrier that has been built between us.

It was indeed pleasant. And the times we spent together seemed to fly by so fast. Not much could be said, maybe the distances between us made limited of things that we could converse with each other. Maybe it felt kind of awkward as it has been more than a year since we've met and we only got to know each other for only about 2 weeks. Though the bond has only just been formed at that 2 weeks, I tried to not let go of that connection.

Yeah, all I can say is, I miss the few weeks I had in UKM. If given the chance, I would even consider giving up what I have now to get back what I had during the first 2 weeks of my university life. Thanks for giving me a memorable beginning and I hope I can find a memorable ending too. Thanks for sacrificing your time for me during my stay in Singapore and may this not be the last time we meet. Looking forward to coming meet ups with you, if any. Glad to have a friend like you, contented to be who I am.

In a few hours time~

In a few hours time, I would be in Sekinchan.

In a few hours time, I would be running around in the paddy field like nobody's business.

In a few hours time, I would be eating like there's no tomorrow.

In a few hours time, I would be enjoying my first escapade.

Yeah, tell me about it. In a few hours time I would be off.

=D

A year or so~

It's been more then a year, since I've enrolled in UKM. Before entering, I vowed to never get emotionally entangled in anymore friendship problems. Never to get to close to anyone because I knew that in the end, someone will get hurt.

However, it was easier said than done. The loneliness throughout the first few days in the university was overwhelming. I tried to remain calm and composed. Tried to keep my distance from my just known course mates. However, I couldn't just ignore the loneliness inside me. Not throughout the 4 years of my university life. Hence, I let myself got close to you.

Maybe it was just fate. Or was HE trying to fool around with me? Well, I never blamed HIM for whatever of these that happened. You needed my help, so you asked. And maybe that made us close. Or maybe at least it was for me. You have the right not to say so. Moreover, you just stayed across my room. I felt some connection, maybe because of the similarity of our horoscope. I know maybe it's superficial. But sometimes it's true.

But guess what, all my joy was short-lived after all. For all I knew, you had accepted an offer from NUS. How would I not have guessed, a four flatter like you would definitely keeps your options open wide. When you borrowed my notebook to check the status of your loan application, I wished it did not pass. I know. I'm selfish. You got it anyway.

The process of seeing you getting ready to leave for NUS was undeniably sad I guess. What made it more painful was that I had to go through the whole procedure of you leaving together with you. When you asked me whether you should stay in UKM or go over to NUS, I really had no idea on how to tell you. That is why I chose to remain neutral on both sides. You had to make you own decision. How can I tell you to stay in UKM for my own benefit?

The day came when you had to leave. The night before, I was not sleeping when you came in. Have I known that you were all going to KUO for a farewell party, I would have indeed followed I guess. Thinking back, we did not really have a proper farewell. Maybe I just couldn't accept the fact. The day you went, I saw you leave through the window knowing that I would once be lonely yet again.

I tried to keep in touch, but I guess maybe the both of us are too busy with our own lives till we became more and more distant. I knew that this will sure happen. I am more then glad that once in a while at least we could IM one another. I couldn't ask for more. Though I still feel the emptiness sometimes, it will all get better in time.



Having that experience in the first few weeks of my life in UKM was indeed not fun. However, it did not stop there. I tried to be more open or else I might rot and no one would know. Well as fate has it, I got to know another course mate who is also a libran. We talked a lot. At least through SMS. He is a person who is more expressive through SMS rather than talking in person. I respect that as I could feel that he really treated me as a fren.

We were quite close initially, but soon, maybe he guessed that he couldn't just befriend me alone and got back to his clique soon after. Though after that, we still contacted each other and he would find me to help him in his studies.I never knew whether I managed to help him or not. Reason was I myself was in a mess. Even now.

Few months passed and maybe I could feel the distance. Or maybe I'm the one creating the distance between us? I did not know as it happened too fast. Fast until I did not notice it left before it came. If given the chance, I would maybe choose to remain good friends with you. I would like to take this chance to apologize to you if I might have done anything to hurt you. I never meant for it to happen. I know you will never see this post, but as I've said, maybe it will get better in time.



Last but not least, I guess you would be the last one. No point going through how we met and how we became close. I guess both of us are very well aware of it. And both of us are very well aware that there is a problem, with no one to solve it. Maybe you just don't want it to be solved? I won't make any conclusions here.

At first I really thought that the problem came from me. You said I gave you pressure, I stopped the things that I do that make you pressured. You said I tied you too tight, I loosened the string. I've done everything I can, to preserve our friendship. You always said that friends should be go naturally, but there is already a tumor in it. So let me ask you, how can things go naturally if there is a tumor? I could only respect what you said.

I guess the argument the other day broke the silence in you. You really wanted to let go of your anger on me. Let me make things clear that I did not asked for an argument with you. I spoke nicely at first but you started raising your voice. Though I knew you a ready for a fight, I tried to remain calm. I did not want to widen the crack that has already been formed in our friendship. And guess what? You just didn't give up. Congratulations. You won the fight. But can I say that you lost a friend?

You kind of apologized the other day but maybe I just couldn't hear the word sorry. Well friends aren't supposed to be too offended by these things anyway. Especially if you really treat him truthfully. At least that was what I guessed.

After a few days, we started to contact each other lesser and lesser. And I wondered why. I asked you for a drink and you said okay. Maybe it was just to please me? I don't know. After the drink things remained the same.

I was quite dumb-founded. I though I was being sensitive all over again. However this time I guess maybe I was not. Another person also thinks that you are always SMSing someone. Not me. Not those that we were aware of. Putting all the puzzles together, it became evident that you have found a friend that understands you more than what I could have.

You found someone to replace me. Or was I never in the competition at all? It took us aprroximately 7 months and 9 days to be where we are now, and you just needed a week or so to forget all of these. Maybe I'm just not worthy of being your friend. Maybe I just try too hard. However and whatever that has happened, I still treat you as a friend. A close one, even if you don't, ever again.

Let you be the last one, that I get emotionally entangled with, let you be the last one I would try so hard to be friends with, let this be the last time I would be posting on this blog on how we could be and not how we are. Let this be the last time, I would trust someone so full-heartedly and let this be the last time you hear me say, we have a problem. We don't have any. Only I do. So let this be the last post on this matter. I never once regretted what happened between us as I know that the joyful moments are abundant and is able to compensate for the unhappy ones. It was a nice experience. Thank you.